Well the only time it snowed here was back on the second of December LOL! but anyway things are looking better though I gotten myself in a mess that is for sure.

My father is very worried my current condition since the pain has recently caused me some other problems which ended up in a call to My medical doctor on what to do, after the panic and worry was all over with my family settled me down so that I could rest which was downstairs at the time.

However I did not sleep at all Thursday night, my Father whom wishes me stay putt was alright with my coming upstairs as long as I staid stationary for three days. So all this Christmas stress I have had was soon handled and fixed first by picking out gifts then finding out I had a budget on how much I could give to friends so after having a long talk with my mother it worked out to less stress thank god! Only one issue left I can't go back to classes for the rest of the month oh well which means no Certificate for Me and a massive thing of doing the Lighting all over again, Why am I not in shock lol anyway may prove easier when they figure out what is going on.

You have any idea how annoying it is when others ask are you Pregnant for the sixty time and all you keep telling them is NO I a not even the X-ray and MRI says I am not so what wrong with me I have no idea I want to know seriously this is getting to annoying for my liking and I don't do well with staying put, >M< its driving me nuts, good news is during this down time I learned I can make my own Lighting studio using House hold items like PVC pipe so I may do that for some small projects, Though if anyone can answer me this, Can you suggest a site or even if arrangements or crafted items can be sold through DA? and Does the Seller get all of the money from the sell or a percent that worth using DA print Page? Any Help please answer....

Ever have a day were no matter what you did seemed as though nothing NOTHING ever worked out. Today is just like that for me, I am dealing with so much that I just can't handle it I mean literally I can not do anything, I try and try and try again but I just can't deal with all this stress and Utter idiocy that keeps pushing at me. All I want is to to this Stupid assignment right and that I can't even manage no matter what I do.

I hate feeling in pain I hate it far worse with ever stupid thing makes me so mad I just want to destroy everything from my camera to my computer. All this is because of a Stupid incandescent and fluorescent lightning assignment! I mean How hard can something as Lighting be when your not feeling like shit all the time. I mean for the last four months All I feel is pain and nothing helps the meds barely do any damage to my system.

I just wish now I had not taken this stupid course because it just so Hard on my emotions and my mental feelings. I know I am never gonna get this and asking for help like I did has not even come with a simple written back email. I just don't know what I am going to do because I am just too tired too frustrated and far to Irritated to handle it right now.

Along with the up and coming Christmas season. UGH! its hard enough that my frustrations were taken out on my computer upstairs, to the point I lost all my NIKON PHOTOS! Thankfully I recovered most of them along with having backups on another computer. Though figuring out what to give as gifts is gonna take a while good thing I got time for it. Though I am finding my hardest issue is Does anyone here Know how to convert a raw image to appear on Photo shop cs3. because I can't get it to come up or convert to jpeg without taking it in jpeg. So please Help me on this....


However their is good news among the chaos right now, my fathers working buddy from Lockheed called to assist me on my class work after I had emailed him. He loved my shots and explained a few things I need to hear along with some suggestions on how to do better with the combined lighting. Thanks to him I can actually do the homework more effectively so that when I take it in I will get more constructive feedback.

Aside from this I also may have found what is going on with my body, Its a theory at this time but it seems to fit. I may have one of two things and both interlink with one another, Yes most would say I am a Hypochondriac, this I am aware but do not doubt that what happening is not made up. I am in very real pain and I have been this way for far too long in both mine and my family concern. Anyway, the two competing theories is one Hypo/hyperthyroidism or two Fibermyalga both are treatable but until test are done and more info is found out, I maybe ranting a lot more due to how this situation has progressed for me.

Hello all My Dawatchers,

Hello everyone, Its me again your lovely Photographer Faye, I have recently found my old account on Da and am now going to change over my Traditional works to it. Do not be alarmed while My photographic works will be Featured on this page, My Drawings and Writings will be on my secondary page [link] I shall be changing over many of my Drawings and Writings this week ; so please be on the look out for them because they will no longer be on this page.

Yes I am still in some pain but I am finding my art and photographic work are easing the stress of both not having a job and trying to keep up with classwork and deviantart posting. So Please be patient with me.

Also please check out my Fathers page on da, [link] You might be surprised.

Sincerely
Jenny

Yes again another journal about the pain I been going through now up to two months. This has not been an easy thing finally saw the Pain management specialist, I was told the first step I would need is minor surgery, he are going to put me under and inject some meds into my lower hip region to numb and diagnose the remaining problem if in a months time this does not work, I go on to step two which is a nervous system and muscles test were they look for block in the system.

Anyway For those interested I was hoping to do an art trade, I was wanting a picture of Sailor jupiter done in the style of Clamps Rayearth fuu in the earthen or surreal images such as :

[IMG][link] - Image one reference

[IMG][link] - Image two

[IMG][link] Image three

[IMG][link] Image four

But with the theme Of Sailor Jupiter colors green and pink in a sailor senshi style from the images time frame, Its for a cosplay design for a costume that I want to make but need picture to work off of color wise and desgin. Since my recent issue has made it difficult to write type and draw, I was hoping to do a art trade for this particular image, I am going to be taking a wild life photography course at the end of the month and will gladly trade one of my works for this image. If you need a reference picture of sailor Jupiter or Makoto Kino here you are:

[IMG][link] Sailor Jupiter

[IMG][link] - eternal sailor Jupiter

As I wrote before I would like to keep the colors of Sailor Jupiter but have the style of Rayearth surreal/ old world costume with a sailor scout styling from that time frame if possible, I know its confusing so if you have question please note me or comment so I can try to explain more detailed.

Ah yes the techno rebel of cell phones has become addicted to KH for those of you who don't know its Kingdom Hearts. My bf Sean just recently purchased Kingdom Hearts 358/2 days the latest next to Birth of sleep and the three preceding it as well such as K.H. One two and Chain of Memories. Since we both have our own copies, I have spent time playing this particular game and become addicted to the graphics and story line which I must say is very well thought out. It also a good distraction to keep my mind off my leg issues, But now I understand why people cosplay the characters considering the story line.

Though I am plagued with questions about many of the characters, such as why demxy is always complaining about work load when he does mostly recon? or How Xigbar tends to see roxas as a student more then as coworker and teases him alot about it ,even thought its fun to read. However my major question is For the Nobodies such as Axel roxas and Xion why are organization members trying to enforce the idea they have no hearts, but when in fact they act so closely as friends, and farther more I have noticed that with each passing time you finish a mission you learn a bit more but it can be so confusing.

Anyway its one of the few games I am really enjoying, I am kinda glad now that I have it but the battles god sometimes they take forever but its so fun! I hope everyone enjoys these games should they get to play them.